Narcissism: the beginning, the real

Today I want to explore the earliest stages of life, after we experience the first, ultimate separation from the mother, that is, birth. I feel quite strongly that there is a lot going on in the mind of the infant (0-6 months) that theory has ignored. Surely there are some formative things going on in that tiny, fuzzy head that carry over into other stages of development that have been thoroughly explored (like Lacan's mirror stage and Freud's oral stage). (comment 1)

I am thinking of this term "primal repression" and its rather confused definition in Freud's theory. Since I see a close connection between motherhood/the maternal, and this early stage of human development, I will explore it and its relation to the abject.

Now for a definition of primal repression: first, it has to do with the speaking being...even early in our development as people we are, in some way, haunted, dogged by the Other (in very early stages, by the mother who both holds us close and rejects us in our first experience of jouissance) and fascinated (yet horrified by) our ability to separate, reject. In this case, what is the abject? How about this: the abject as the "object" of primal repression... (comment 2) Primal repression differs from the clinical term "repression" as it is commonly used in that this early repression comes before language -- because...why? Because significance is inherent in the human body. (comment 3)

Abjection at this stage comes about (and remains with us the rest of our days) because of the initial separation we experience -- a space becomes demarcated.... the abject separates from what will become a subject and its objects. As we develop an ego, as we define the I, the self, as we begin to recognize our boundaries, our limits, we explore this primal repression (which replaces "the unconscious"). (comment 4) In the early stage of life, we are closest to the real (that is, where we experience nothing but need without language). Where theory falls short is when approaching the maternal in relation to the real, and how a new being interprets what he experiences when interacting with the mother. The mother occupies a unique position -- that of primary provider (as the locus of all desires/needs) of satisfaction/life. But she is also the one who teaches the new being language, thus tearing him (violently?) away from the real. (comment 5)